2020 struck the world by its core and most of our lives where flipped upside down. Whatever this year has thrown your way, I am sure none of us will forget it and it will go down in history for sure. Here are some of the lessons I have learnt about myself during 2020.
I belong outdoors 2020 was the year we all probably spent the most amount of our time indoors. I am grateful that the home I live in has a wonderful garden where I got to spent most of the summer lockdown. It was a great time for me to be still and present with myself. Spending more time outdoors made me realise how much I love the outdoors. My body craves the hills, the mountains, the green leafy woods, and the fresh crisp air. I feel much more grounded, less stressed and connected to myself and nature when I am outdoors. I have a much clearer vision on where I see myself living in the future and it is most definitely isn't in a city.
I am very resilient. The year I healed my chronic illness that I was battling silently for 9 months. The darkest time of my life but also the strongest I have ever had to be. I battled through this illness silently as I strongly knew this wasn't going to be forever and there were lessons to be learnt for why I was suffering for a greater good. I did everything I needed to do to heal, as well as a lot of unresolved trauma I had to finally face head on. I battled through the waves of the ups and downs of my mental health and learnt so much about myself. All in all I am so grateful 2020 gave me the time I needed to heal both my physical and emotional health. Words cannot explain how much I feel a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can finally start the next phase of my life.
Human connect is essential. I have always enjoyed my own company, probably way more than the average person. I am an introvert (extrovert around the right people) and an only child so I have grown up spending a lot of time in my own presence. Being alone is essential for me to stay connected to my intuition, recharge and just be me. But too much alone time is never great. I missed spending time with my family and friends. I still miss being able to socialise when I want to and do what I want, whenever I want. I miss being in the middle of the crowd at a concert, or belly rolling in laughter with my friends and getting dressed up to attend different events.
Staying true to myself.
It is very difficult for me to go along with something I truly do not believe in. I cannot play myself down to make somebody else feel comfortable. No matter what it is, if it doesn’t feel right I cannot engage in something that doesn't feel fit well with my soul. Whether that be a night out, hard decisions I need to make, or following the crowd. I have strengthend my relationship tremendously with my intuition and its become impossible for me to ignore my gut feelings. No matter how much they may scare me sometimes, I trust the process and whatever is in store is for my greatest good.
I am sure there are many more lessons I have learned over the past 12 months, but these were the ones that stood out to me the most.
Madison x